shadow proves the sunshine

It's been nearly three months now that I've been back. At first, I couldn't wait to reacquaint myself - to see my old compatriot and co-conspirator. I regarded the task with the earnest anxiety of a schoolboy before the first day of term. I leapt at any and every chance I got to escape the house and experience the world that had continued while I'd been gone - that was the first week back. I made a game of trying to pick out the tiniest of changes - a billboard here, a new restaurant there. And then somewhere in the middle, I got bored; I simply lost the urge to conspire any more. A certain passiveness crept over me and convinced me to stay in my room and read, or stare into empty screens endlessly, imploring them to entertain me. And then, before I knew it, the holiday had come to an end.